I dunno why relationship can be so troublesome. A simple straight forward answer still cannot make one satisfied. A "No" means a No,,, why must still persist on. When I say no, this means that i have reconsidered the matter and have drawn conclusion that things will not work out. I will stand firmly to my decision. and that shall be it. When it is time to let go, let go. Why bother to hurt yourself even more. Guess it did not help with my initial hestitation due to some issue like if we can remain as friends or not if i reject and thinking of nicer ways for the rejection. Sigh.... one wrong move actually caused many unwanted problems.
Lesson learnt. "No" just say "nO". no need to consider the other party's feeling. =)
2:49 PM Caris
Sunday, March 06, 2005
Attended Fish leong's concert today. She is simply fantastic. really is a 唱将。
Here goes ,
Opening was spoilt by the poor sound system. The Bass is too strong and it sort of affect her singing as if she did not deliver it smoothly. But as she gradually warm up, she sounds very good. The opening song is the same as Taiwan's concert - 燕尾蝶. She belted out most of her well known love songs in the beginning.. and the crowd was much better than i thought. she is pretty cute also.. which helps in buildling rapport with the audience. Emil Chou was humerous as usual. provide much entertainment especially when he aid in proposal of two couples.. I thought that was very well done and special lor. After that, they sung the hokkien song.. "one umbrella". Emil Chou's section was purely dedication section. He played the guitar and sung which ever songs the audience shouted. He even commented that he was lucky that he has so many songs under his belt if not he cannot survive the section. Ha ha so funny right!
Jackie's son still required a lot more live performance experience. However, he looks better with his short hairstyle. More refreshing and boyish.
I have enjoyed myself... =)
3:59 PM Caris
Thursday, March 03, 2005
i spent my enitre day reading his theory in hope that i could complete the health psychology assignment today. In the end, i has not started yet. Why am i so slow? My engine is not running at all.. very frustrated. There are so many things to be done. but i just refused to complete them. Maybe i am reflecting signs of burning out after so many presentations and project works. Well, it's okie...i can handle that... just that i am in holiday mood and there are other stuffs to settle at home as well.
One of my dad's buddy passed away this evening after several months of battle with cancer. Although dad never show any signs of sadness, can see that he really hopes that he could see his friend's last look today which he could not make it due to work commitment. Since i also been through such experience before, it never felt good to hear that your friend has passed on before you. Guess at his age, it is pretty common. no matter what he will definitely feel sad over this lor.. my assumption. =P
3:59 PM Caris
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
The much awaited driving lesson! Finally, i have committed myself to learn how to drive. Driving is so much fun although there are many procedures to remember. And poor me who is well known for having co ordination problems will have a difficult time to get accustomed to all the hassle. Really hope that i can obtained my license by aug 2005. hee hee ... But i realise i get pretty impatient when i drive. I have a tendency of increasing my speed coz i cannot tolerate the "crawling" effect. Of course, got scolding from the instructor coz this is too dangerous. =) Not much money ...hmm..must cut some cost to pay for the fees =(
After that, went to NYP library where lee and me spent our afternoon looking for information with regard to the projects. Both of us were very diligent searching and printing notes. Very exhausted. =P getting old already. Not sure if we can complete what we hope to accomplish this one week break. We try lah hor.... if not bin come back from her hols ..end of the week will sure scream,, with her "monkey faced" expression. ha ha...
3:59 PM Caris
Tuesday, March 01, 2005
My right eye was red when i woke up this morning. I have absolutely no idea why it is red . None of the people i contact with last week was suffering from sore eyes. It was so swollen and painful. The worse thing as that i was late for project meeting and workshop, leaving Bin alone as xy and fl could not make it too. Poor bin... for once she makes an effort to be early. =)
Paid a visit to SPC TT. saw redz, cliffy and sk.. and ed and jules.... They all looked the same ha ha.. ...never aged and sitll look good (ergh dun puke if u saw this bro! ) . ha ha ... Well it felt like home coming kinda feeling. Walking into the office, sitting at ed's workstation, the famaliar surrounding... chatting with bro ..... actually i do miss my work , my stats... sigh !!
With all the waiting, we finally begin work at about 12 plus. we were so touched that dad actually get the hinges we need before hand and fixed the parts for us while we sneaked out for lunch. However, we discovered that we need to shorten the length of the tibia portion. so we decided to make a trip to popular to get material for a mock up prototype... and found solutions to the problem. However, need to experiment on it first. anyway, the board provide better patient comfort than the current ones...that was confirmed coz we try on it,.,, and give the same conclustion.
Tomorrow going for my first driving lesson.. will update tomorrow .. Hope my eye get better if not have to waste $$ to see doctor again. =(
