Finally received the piano score which i have been looking for in the past few weeks.
george winston's piano score which i bought it online over amazon. Yes, i simply could not rely on my ears to derive the musical notes at all. This is pretty sad but i have actually come to term with this matter. Since young, i have no problem with the melody but i have big problems with the harmonic portion. Never seem to be able to do that properly. That seems fine with me since most of the time i have the scores in front of me when i play the piano. However, as time passed, i realized i have to spend a substantial sum of money on piano scores. That will always happen to me who do not have such talents to do that.
This has helped me understand the fact that i am not a musician but belongs to the group whom appreciate music more than the role of a performer. i understand it is definitely beyond my ability to excel the performance art.
Despite of all these, i craved for a career in the music industry. i do not have to be the performing artist but simply making my contribution to keep the music community vibrant. Now, it seems like i am too far away from my dreams. i can only contribute as a consumer. But can i do a bit more? Will i be happier or will my job be more fulfilling if i have chosen this path. No definite answer to that. Just getting bored with what i am doing currently. Trying to think of the possible career switch i can do for the future...What else can i go into next??
It is a big question mark, i strongly believe i will be able to find that someday.. =)
11:18 PM
Caris
It's National Day yesterday !
spent my national day sleeping away as i was on night shift on saturday. Nothing interesting at the moment.
Again, i am pondering over my future. Where am i heading? i have no idea and absolutely no vision at all. But there is one thing i am definitely sure right now is i am sick of the working environment.
11:53 PM
Caris