We were watching a movie about R&B Singer, Ray Charles in the afternoon. I have always respect this infamous singer. i like his songs and the way he sang. He has give music its soul and life. Although he became blind when he was young, his mum had taught him well so that he could survive in this cruel world . However, the mishap to his brother ,George casted a dark shadow in Ray's Life who kept reprimanding himself for causing the death of his brother. He turned to drugs to escape from the reality. The part where he was in rehab centre and how he overcame the effects of drugs are learning examples for all drug abusers. It's the will of oneself that helped one to stay away from drugs and remained focus on music or whatever one is doing.

Well, this is something i have been trying to put off till now. i guess i dun have much choice as several people have already commented that my scoliosis problem has worsen. From the back, there is a obvious hump over my left shoulder and the condition seems to have worsen since i started working officially. Sigh.... if i dun correct the problem now, i think it will get worse as i aged. i could imagine how ugly i would become when the real spine problem set in. My spine will curved further and become a true "S" shaped. From the chest x ray, it will look like a dragon. How sad right. i may have respiratory problem due to the oddly shaped lungs and radiographer will have a hard time positioning me. Then i may not problem lying flat too. Real headache manz...

i am so tired after work. In fact i was already worn out at about 230pm. Due to the "long duration" biopsy cases, we had to rush to complete the cases over at our side. Sometimes, i am very amazed by how we managed to clear the cases and could only do it with ZX. Hee hee,,, he is really a fast efficient worker. How can i be as skilful as him? Sigh .....

It was only 230pm and it felt like as if we have reached the end of the day. Luckily, there's no many complicated cases. thank god for that i guess =)

But every time i came back, i was not really happy coz i did not get to do what i want to do when i was abroad. My expectation for the coming trip is not going to be high coz there's a difference in travelling with friends and with family members. i could do a lot of crazy things with friends but not with family members although my mum could be pretty "crazy" sometimes. Well, shall see how things go.

i have been on the afternoon shift for the past few days. God,,, i wondered why there were so many traumas these days. They were either fell from height or road accidents. Maybe the weather was too warm and workers tend to get a bit dehydrated and giddy after spending a qood quality of time under the blazing sun. Well then there were rainy days which was when the roads became another highly dangerous place. After performing mutliple x rays for accidents as such, you would feel very drained out. My back ached due to the strength i applied to move the x ray tube around for the various projections as well as the constant bending down and lifting up to check the cassette placement. There was only one conclusion after the procedure. That is dead tired!!! ha ha ha.

Everytime after portable x rays be it in resus or over at the wards, the processing of images will always be a surprised coz some of the cases, it was really done with the blind man method truly based on estimation and exposed hoping that we had captured what they want in the image. Sigh...

It's good though when you are mentally drained and someone came along and give a pat on your shoulders to tell u to liven up,,, this is not the end of the world. That served as a wake up call in the sense that the action sort of like reminded you that there are still many cases out there waiting for you to complete and you need to feel recharged to face yet another challenge outside of the resus rooms. It's always never ending stories,,, and cases happen in hospitals. Some stories repeated itself each day and you could help but feel sorry for the party.

There are some issues i still could not come to terms with. Why are the nurses so afraid of radiation? i am not talking about those working in ICUs, they are all very nice and also partly due to the fact that there are too many lines to look after so they have to assist us to ensure that all their monitoring lines are intact while we performed the portable x ray procedures. I am utterly pissed with those working in the normal wards. Whenever the portable x ray machine was pushed into the ward, the nurses will all walk away very briskly and hid in their respective places without asking if i required any assistance or not. They actually slowed down the whole procedure especially when the patient is not mobile and required assistance. If they could help out , i could position the patient in a shorter time rather than me struggling with the patient and trying not to hurt them. Sometimes i just wanted to ask the nurse if the patient could sit up for x rays or cannot be sit up, the nurses also refused to give me chance to ask and they just direct me to the student nurses on attachment. What is this !!!!! ... you mean student nurses are not as precious as them. They could just hid inside the room and the students just left them outside. They are setting a bad examples. What's wrong with just staying around and assist us in lifting the patient who are not very mobile or too big size to be handled alone. We are also fellow colleagues, you dun want to hurt your back,, i also dun want to hurt mine. It is not as if that i dun wait for u to hide when i do my x rays. i will always make sure that the crowd is cleared before i made exposure. At least the nurses could help to disperse the visitors in the same cubicle ... this will also help to speed up the procedure as well rather than i informed the visitors ,,after i positioned the patient, the visitors still refused to leave the room and i have to spend another 5 minutes getting the visitors to go out before i can make exposures. Then have to wait for nurses doing something in another bed,,,,,,, all these required waiting time and we sometimes dun have the time to wait coz we have other urgent cases to do as well. They just want their cases to be done and dun bother about what happen after that. I am very mad with the nurses in the normal wards. They are very inconsiderate and very self centered. They dun even care about teamwork and even about patients sometimes. I dun blamed them coz they have many many things to cope with so much so that they dun have time to take care of the patients. why dun they try to push the machine around the entire hospital and have to fight lift with the visitors especially during visiting hours. Of course, we have to let the visitors go first coz they are considered external customers. Then the pager would beep non stop ,,,they just expected us to fly there. Not even a word of thank you from them. For those nice ones, i will always thank them for the assistance but normally they dun even give proper polite instructions..... always give a black and commanding look. These makes the working environment a very yucky place to work. I just hate that!!!!!!!!!!

It has been a long time. hee hee

Well, i am back on shift for one week and i has this feeling that my general x rays skills are deterioting big time.... after about one week, till this morning then i was able to do tight collimation for my PA chest erect and AP Sitting Chest. Really shaking my head. Had my first trauma alone during the wee hours. i was definitely pissed off with the tube in resus. The cables just got caught in between the partitions again and i dun have the strength to move it to the centre of the "small" cubicle. What to do, cannot move tube then have to move the trolley. And they just left that ultrasound machine blocking the way, goes without saying damn irritating with the limited already space and with and additional "space occupying lesion". How to move fast with so many equipment hindering the movement and people moving in and out of the room without closing the door. Time has to be wasted waiting for the door to close again and for people to evacuate the place. Absolutely pissed!!!!!! Although the patient was really small size, c spine still could include everything. No choice, maybe will have to do swimmers' view in room 6 later if the condition is stable. The limited working space and that stupid tube coupled with my half rotten skills ....that's really the best i could do. luckily my partner came back for the femur x ray, i have problem inserting the cassette under as i could not use the trolley's bucky. Oh but i did a jack's handle view (a pretty nice one) by myself after two repeats coz the head rotated cannot see both sides and the placement of the cassette as well.

Despite of all the frustrations at work, we managed to squeeze in some yoga sessions during the night. Nice working partners to be with. This coming week, i will be running on afternoon shift again. Oh no.... the most busiest part of the day with OT, portables and all.

Some updates on my coming trip, have finalised the air tickets. Now just need to finalised the accomodation and mode of transport to paris then have to start getting the essentials for the trip. Backpacking this time.... hmmmm

Today is like a "packing" day for me. i was busy clearing the procedure room this afternoon and when i came back home..i had to clear some stuff to accomodate the television set which my mum brought back from one of my auntie's friend place. Of course, it was for me and i was pretty pissed off coz i already told her not to bring the tv back. i dun want a tv in my room. In a rage, i dismantled my snoopy jigsaw puzzle which i completed a few years back. it was left lying around as i could not find a frame i like for it. guess it was another occasion where i could not control my emotions well. Getting really bad in my EQ........

Discovered another airline selling cheap tickets which i am looking out for my trip overseas. But hopefully there are still vacancies to accomodate the four of us. oh before i sit on things,,, must remember to process my application form though.