Darn..... i missed lee hom's radio interview at 1030pm yesterday since now is already midnight.

Thursday was more of a blur blur day for me. i was like walking in wonderland. My mind was not at work..... never checked this and that..... resulted in so many mistakes. Sometimes i liked to do scans on my own so that i could do it my way and ensure that i got what i wanted to see. Like today case, should have started with monitoring, coz my time estimation is still not polished. Too bad, seniors are always right but when others questioned, the problematic scans are always being conducted by juniors. Where's the logic?

Anyway, Lee hom has arrived in Singapore. Although i will not be attending any of his promotion activities as usual, just happy coz there will be more news and his songs on air. =P

i am pretty tired these days especially after my viral flu. i am still recovering from it. Looks like i have been spreading my flu bug to those people in CT. Oops .... Think tomorrow will have to stay back to settle the public holidays thingy ,,,before things get out of hand. So if i am not going to bowling.. i will still be in hospital doing my stuff.

Grandma is not doing good over there in LA. Her heart is really weak and her kidneys are not functioning properly leaving puffy all over. My auntie has prepared for the worst. Sounds pretty serious but we could not fly over now to be with her. Mum is still down with flu and i am still recovering from the flu attack. Sigh...

what a day... in the beginning,,, i dun feel that i would have a good day. To start with, i left the house with the intention to take a cab to work so that i would have more time to settle the roster thingy. In the end, i stood along the road and waited for about 15 minutes, there was not a single taxis available . So i switched plan to take the mrt instead. Luckily, i left home slightly earlier but i reached almost on the dot and left with no time to fix the roster.

Then after lunch, while doing scans, i discovered that there was a man made hole in the gantry. Oh my lord, i have absolutely no ideas of when and how the damage was done. That's the last thing i want, to replace the gantry cover will cost a bomb. but i have no idea how that happened. Then of course i was asked to investigate when and how it happened. This is going to be a tough job.

Has been sleeping most of the time since i was down with this viral flu. It has proved its potency for the past few days and knocked me out of work for so long. Just cannot believe that i have used up half of my mcs for the year.

During this period, i have cut down my time spent in front of the pc and switched my attention to my piano and guitar instead. Music therapy has always been working well for me. Running my fingers across the black and whites keys makes me feel better each time after a practice session. At least i dun cough that often and dun feel the strain on my neck and throat. i am still wondering if i am having sore throat now as i have difficulty in swallowing . Anyway , will be back at work tomorrow and hopefully will not be that stressful.

I am on another 2 days medical leaves and was ordered by my doctor to rest at home. First it was the viral flu bug, then it turned out to be sinusitis. This was bad coz he said he was going to give me higher dose of antibiotics for that. In my heart i was praying that my stomach could tolerate that. Well, it seems like my stomach dun really like that.. so i started to vomit after taking the antibiotics. Darn.... hence, i got no choice but took my gastric pill too. u know how bitter was the gastric pill, it tasted 10 times worse than the antibiotics and panandol. In case u got confused, i still dunno how to swallow tablets so i had to crush my tablets into powdered form and mix with some water for consumption. Usually i put everything in there and crushed them. But in this case, i had to take my normal cold tablets and gastric tablet first then about one hour or half later, then i take my antibiotics. Hopefully this will work ,,, if not i really consider asking my doc to change another antibiotics for me instead. that's another 40 bucks down the drain.

Not that i want to be sick.... i am already trying hard to rest already. Just that probably, i had a load of back log sleep to catch ever since i started my ct oncall. Ct oncall is really damaging to my health. i rather do shift than to do on call. At least i get sufficient rest rather than continue to work the next day. Hee hee since i am ct on call, i have been taking mcs pretty often. Need to build up my health again. Lack of exercise, lack of sleep and what else...... this is sufficient to ruin my life.

i am down with viral flu all of a sudden. The doctor gave my two days medical leave to rest at home.

i was still doing fine after work although could feel that my muscles were very tight around my shoulders and neck region. i just kinda dismissed the aches coz the aches were probably due the long day of stretching my muscles working away. i was really toxic this few days considered the number of cases i did. oh my god.. cannot believe that i could be that busy. =) Anyway, after bath, i started to feel very cold to the extend that shivering eventhough there was no fan blowing in my direction. However, i still forced down my dinner and cleared up. After clearing up, i just went to bed but could still feel very cold to the extend that i changed into long pants and wearing sweater as if i was in winterland. About 11 plus, i could feel that my throat was very dry, my nose was blocked, my head was damn painful and could not stop shivering. Decided to measure my temperature , it reads 38.7 degree celcius. Popped in a panadol and continued to sleep. Then i felt very warm. At the back of my mind, this is bad, why am i getting bouts of cold and warm reaction. Looks like dengue. oh no......

i was still having mild fever in the morning. i wanted to go to work but has a second thought coz i dun want to spread my virus to anyone else. so i went to see doctor to confirm that i had a viral flu but need to monitor if i develop any rashes in the next few days. Here am i crushing tablets with my gadget and eating sweet right after i swallowed my smashed tablet. just now i cleared my nose and there was blood. oh my,,,,,, this looks bad right ...

sometimes i am not sure if i am having depression from work?

sometimes i just hate the feeling after a day of hard work . i mean hard work but with no motivation to carry on for the next working day.

i hate the fact that i slog like mad , making myself so breathless and miserable to get all the x rays done in the fastest possible time i could take to complete them, with nothing but complaints at the end of the day.

i really really hate that i have to go without water and toilet break just to slog my ass off to get the x rays done leaving a worn out "me" at the end of the day.

i really really really hate when i am already given my very best effort yet in the eyes of others, i am still slow and could have perform better.

the fact that i have already stressed myself out with body ache all over , dehydrated, multiples bruises due to hard knocks when need to get things done fast... i really dun understand why i dun feel happy after that.

maybe i am really really very very slow ...... maybe i am really not suitable for this job .... maybe i should not have even left my previous job... maybe i should not even take up radiography in the first place....

i am back to the 2pm till 9pm shift. This is one of the shift work which i hated most coz there's still work on sunday then monday is another work day again. Very boring and tired although i do get to sleep a bit more in the morning and as usual i slept late at night. These few days, i usually get sleepy pretty early. Fixed my "fractured" molar yesterday. Really had very weak teeth structures. So often, i got cracks in them for no reason. That's bad.

My first day back in general was really havoc with OT running more than 3 cases in there after office hours. it's so confusing to organise man power and handling ct on call being late for his case. That's additional pressure. haha ,,, kinda miss the fun but was really drained out after that.

to think about it, although i have spine problem and it is not advisable for me to wear the lead apron for too long, i still like to be in OT then out in the general. Of course, nothing beats hiding in CT away from general. ha ha ,,,

ha ha ..today apparently i forgot to bring my ezlink card with me when i went to work today coz at the back of my mind, i wanted to take a cab to work instead of waiting "endlessly" at the bus 95 bus stop. However, i forgot all about the morning matter. i was frantically searching my entire bag for the ezlink card. Of course, i could not find the card till my colleague asked me what i was hunting for. Then she reminded me ... u took cab to work remember ....... Ha ha ,,,, that's explained why and i left the card at home,... mum confirmed it.

Oh i saw my dream car when i was on my way home. The mitsubishi i looked so good. The second generation looks better the first generation.

Pavarotti has passed away yesterday. So sad, we lost a great voice......