It has been a busy weekend due to the conference. i am glad that i was given a chance to attend the conference. That exposure has helped me set my future goals, at least i have found something i could contribute to the society besides being a radiographer. Since my back condition will not allow me to perform clinical duties all my life, health informatics might be another route i could take other than clinical.

Looking at my grandma now lying in the bed with a fracture hip reminds me that i should pay more attention to my own health. i may be young and healthy now, whatever strains i put my body through all these while may result in more illness when i get older. Is this worthwhile? For me to slog all my health away, in the end i may not get anything in return except a faulty body system.

Kinda worried for my grandma. Whatever her fate will be tomorrow, we will have to accept that. This is life. We will not know the outcome if we do not try. Sometimes, for an old lady, i really do not know what's there to try for. The pain and suffering she will be going through after that may be her worse nightmare of her life. However, that is not in my control and the decision is not made by me as well. i could just pray for her safety...

i am not sure if i made the right decision to make that move but i just want a fair picture of the incident. Some may not like what i have done or even disagree to the findings .. i can only leave it as that. Any bad blood after the incident ... i am not too worried... maybe i am just being sensitive.

Many events have occurred over the past few days. My dad's road accident as well as my grandma's fall had tired me out. i have yet to hit the target i have set for this month.....

Yet the upcoming weeks , it will be busier.... Need more rest

Boring ... i am so damn bored these days. I have been trying to get myself to complete the certification before the end of my annual leave break. Guess i have to take a while more before i could meet that target.

Yes, i lost my motivation to work again. In fact, i am losing my appetite as well. Not sure what is the problem here, maybe i need to get out of singapore for a few weeks to get me interested in local food again. Nothing interesting to eat.. well, there goes without saying that i am going to lose a few kg later this month.

i was browsing through the recruitment session of the straits times today. There are not many job recruitment going on nowadays. However, something caught my eyes. Research Forecast Analyst. That sounds so familiar. i am getting sick of my current job, sick of the work environment, sick of the never ending shift work. For a person who do not like normal routine working hours, i should like to do shifts. But sad to say, i dun like shift work. i can work all the long but i dun like to do shift. i dun like the fact that i have to wait for time to start work at night. My pockets of energy level are meant for project works which have deadlines to meet. i cannot work without deadlines. i hate the fact that everything cannot meet deadline which happens in my current environment or rather there are no definitely deadline given. That makes everything even worse. i am not sure how long i could tolerate such work nature anymore. i am tired and sick and i dun feel like going on...........