it rained the entire day in singapore today. There i was, hoping to get my facial bone competency. But there was none when i was around. Sigh ... why couldn't i get over everything fast and move on with my plans fast !!! Time is definitely running out.

Many things have popped up at home. Think there will be a major financial problem coming up real soon following my dad's poor business. We have braved through such times when i was young... so i guess this time ,,, we could still survive the ordeal hopefully. Sometimes, i just wish that i did not make a career switch and remained in my previous job. At least, i know the income i earned could help my parents to load off some of their burdens. And at their age now, they should not be working so hard to keep the family going but more of the semi retirement stage. Dad has been working late for the past weeks trying to get more cash to pay off the outstanding rental fees. Things dun look good having to employ "free" loader who dun work but sit around in the office playing gameboy and reading storybooks. The housing loan for the house is also a problem. Well, although these problems have been there for so many years, they seem to have become "bigger" and i would say more prominent now and ever. Probably because i chose to look into them now ... while in the past, i just take it for granted that my parents would settle that or somehow assistance will come in time before things get out of hand. Hopefully, similar help will come this time round.

Have to write my case study.. next week deadline. (",)

My lower back is aching again. Probably due all the bending forward actions to position patients.

Miss Blurry me has did it again. i forgot to confirm my status to attend the conference today and happily assumed that i will not be going. Me and my assumptions ... actually they have registered my name already ... Blrrrr...

i have many stuff to update.,, but all of a sudden,, my mind went blank.. why is this so ??????

i was busy with reports for the past few days. Has been writing a report day, i would say it was a small accomplishment . =P

Oh think i need to discipline myself to exercise. Today a pateint has to help me to shift the steps to the erect bucky for his weight bearing knees projections. Oh my... lucky he did not have any anomalies to start with. felt so embarassed. tsk tsk . But..... but i was really struggling with it .... thanks though for that kind act.

i am still waiting for my facial bone stage b case to appear. Attachments are as per normal but at least now i am beginning to get back some skills for general x ray. i took pretty long for my shoulder x ray today though. Hopefully, the pateint will not complain about it coz she dun look very happy when i took so long to position her as it took sometime of me to orientate myself to do AP view in bucky,,, suddenly dunno how to centre the ray and align cassettes. =P

Last night ends and today commenced with Changi Airport. Why i say that coz i spent from 12 midnight to 6 am in changi airport. hee hee...this is something i may not believe that i could actually stay awake through the night but well, i survived.

First of all, Jean and i have been arranging between ourselves to be at the airport to send off one of our good friends who is leaving for States on 6am flight. After much speculations, we decided that the best and most economical method was to get there via public transport. At frist we were pretty doubtful with our "stay awake" strength. However, it turned out pretty well spending one hour on food, another hour on card making and the last one and a half hours on tarot cards before meeting SY. hee hee if u are wondering how we spent our time, that's how we did it. And time flew past pretty fast.

i dun really feel tired ... only after that i slept in the train, hee hee ,,,but it's worth the trip coz both of us thinks that we just have to send u off ,,, so many years of friendship liao. will miss u very much,,,Take care okie (",)

Now i understand why mothers to be are so excited when they see the fetus during the ultrasound scan. After observing one today in her second trimster, it seems like all the "sufferings" for the 10 months waiting for the baby to be delivered is all worthwhile. i was felt that my eyes were whelmed with tears when i saw the images. hee hee. However, the responsibilities of the sonographer who perform the OB scan is pretty heavy as she needs to be able to identify any abnormalities in the fetus development. Really have to scan through every part meticulously.

i am supposed to update on yesterday's gathering with the class and lecturers. FL never turned up and Lee on MC. The rest of the class turned up despite of the heavy rain. Food was not exactly delicious but was a bit oily and salty. Well, it was a pretty relax atmosphere. i think this was the first time we are so talkative in front of lecturers. hee hee. Wonder if we have such class gatherings after we graduate? Hopefully, we do coz i will miss them coz most of us like to crap and crap all day long. =P

Sometimes u just feel like giving yourself a break. A break from the cruel and unpleasant reality, thereby retreating into our own world of fantasy where everything inside this world is so perfect and well. The escape actually grant some personal spaces to individual. Some personal time to reflect on ourselves as well as letting one to relax before returing to the real world.

Sometimes i wish i could set up my own place away from my parents just like the children in the western part of the globe. i wish to break free from the control of my parents and gain freedom to what i want to pursue in life. However, do children needs parents to keep them in check so that they would not go astray? i have confidence in myself that i can take care of myself but can my parents take care of themselves. i guess when they reach a certain stage in their lives, they do need the support of their children. It is time for children to fulfil their responsibilities towards their bearer, their "masters"..... if not for their union, there will be no me. Thus no matter how i wish to break free, i cannot run away from the responsibilities i bear on my shoulders. A burden which i hope will not be too heavy to bear by myself.

Guess i am pretty lucky that my parents are still going strong. They are still taking care of us rather than we take care of them. They are always feeding us food instead of us bringing them out to enjoy a sumptous meal. All these i can only say it is our fault. We are too occupied with our own stuff that we neglected the old folks. They only have themselves and a couple of their friends to keep them occupied besides work.

we failed to fulfil that portion of our "jobscope" as children in the family unit.

It was another boring day at work today. First of all, the mood was just not right for work. A working day sandwiched between two public holidays. Oh my!!! .. dun think i can function well though i need to concentrate and collect cases for my reports. So i ended the working hours with a few shoulders, fingers and foot. Luckily, there were hui and ML around to joke around and did our usualy crapping business when we were free.

i am supposed to start writing my trauma report now. But i dun have the mood to get down to work at all. HELP!!!!!! Maybe i should give myself a break and continue with it tomorrow. Hopefully i could complete it by tomorrow. =P

"却说不出你爱我的原因 却说不出你欣赏我哪一种表情
却说不出在什么场合曾让你动心 说不出离开的原因"

My first day in A & E today was terrible. It was not that we were swarmed with patients but after so long not practising my general, the skill went really "rusty". It took me pretty long to position a AP sitting CXR (result not very perfect some more,,,tsk tsk tsk) and hip. Even the skull positioning took me so long to retreive it from my database. This was bad. Doesn't look promising at all.

Managed to see a multiple today but cannot take coz dun have cxr. Sigh.