it seems like after a few months, i will be asking myself again what i want to achieve in life. is this a form of reaffirmation or a reflection thoughts to keep check that i have been working towards what i have aimed for. Well, the answer is that i am still very far away from what i have set to do. I have not been doing what i have preached to do. Neither am i working towards it. I am still living my life and not dictating myself to pursue what i intend to do. Here am i complaining about no time and no extra energy for this and that... but is this really true. The fact that i like to waste my time dreaming or rather engaged in activities that like sleeping and lazed around doing nothing. Is this what i want in life? I got absolutely no idea. a simple task like writing reports it takes me longer than usual coz my mind has been drifting away in dreamland... what i need is to focus on the task so that i can process and organise my thought and put them into words ... this should be a more effective way to do things right. this is the part of me i have problem changing all these years. I dun have such problems when i was young then. probably i have less distractions then only the TV and radio ..to distract my concentration level....luckily i dun have such problems when i am working... maybe the environment has some influences over this. ..... shall ponder about this when i have time again later. =P
