It has been a very confusing and blurry day today. For the start of the day, i already knew that it's going to be a busy day in OT. Although i am prepared, there is something that is out of my expectation. That is a new colleague would be in the OT for orientation too. What a day to have someone new around. i thought he will be with my senior but no he was attached to me for most of the cases. As he has many years of working experiences in this area, it makes no sense that i should be guiding him so i just shown him how to manipulate the machines and the procedures to process the requests. There was nothing much i could do as i myself has not done most of the procedures today as well and neither have i worked with the surgeon before.

Things have not gone well, as two pple operating the c arm. He dun know my style and i dunno his. In the end, i let him handle the machine coz think the surgeon also prefers that.How i know that? My intuition... hee hee Me too slow with shifting the machine and his first impression of me,,,,, already not very good as i dun understand his terminology too. =(

In the last case, i have no choice but to take over since one of us has to go off. I got comments from him that there is a problem with my technique. But i did not even shift the tube or make any other adjustments to the machine when i took over. The only damn thing that has shifted was that he shifted the region of interest off the centre of the ii and the region of interest was already near the edge of the table where there is metal lining the edge. That makes the compensation of the AEC differs from the last image. The image thus appeared too dark. first time like that, the second try also like that. My fault .... sigh someone even ask me to go and find my colleague back. what the ***** right. This is so damn depressing lor. it's the pride issue i know .. there is absolutely nothing wrong with the comment just that i cannot take it coz i know i could do it and i am not what he says i am.....however managed to get a better quality image later. And he has nothing to say. didn't bother to ask him what images he wants to print. i just anyhow print since he also dun bother to come and choose. Everyone is tired i guess.

i am going to be in OT for another week. Dunno why they like to schedule me for OT. My right thumb was already strained and can feel the pain whenever i try to lift it. Better not worsen the condition and hope that it will not affect the movement. if like this, i dunno how i am going to resume my piano lessons and sit for examinations later. ERGH---- and guess what, the old injury on my right knee seems to be acting up again today. could feel sharp pain while walking. This is not a good sign as well.

Mummy says she dun understand why i left my previous job to such jobs when i jolly well knows that i am not strong enough as in physically to handle the heavy duty machines. i also dunno why. =(