Merry Christmas, Everyone!!!

Yesterday, i had a quiet silent night for christmas eve. Well, there's really no where to go and i dun feel like going out giving my condition for the day. Hee Hee. How i spent my christmas eve, in front of my television watching the most popular korean drama "Princess Hours". And i managed to complete the entire serial. Kinda disappointed with the last episode as the korean language mode was not functioning properly as a result i had to make do with the mandarin version. Damn sad coz i preferred the korean conversation as the translation in mandarin was not as expressive as the korean. In the end, i watched the last episode again online coz i cannot tolerate the mandarin translation. It's a happy ending after all the tears and sorrow.

After watching the show, it did trigger something at the back of my mind. Something that i have left untouched for a long long long time. However, i still dun want to touch on that yet coz of uncertainity and lack of confidence. Since i am leading a rather peaceful life now, just leave it as that. talking about leaving my comfort zone. Yes i can be very decisive when it comes to career which allows to me to challenge myself to leave my comfort zone. However, i still could not convince myself to get out of my comfort zone in terms of relationship. Over the years, my trust and confidence in relationship was still zero, to the point that i dun want to be involve in any. For those who are always worried about me, when am i going start look for that special someone or accept someone, i am sad to say that i dun have the answer myself. Though sometimes i felt very lonely especially when most of my friends have already started their own families, i dun have habit of asking my friends out often. This loneliness did not expel me out of my comfort zone. Instead i am getting more and more accustomed to this loneliness. Although i think this is getting a bit unhealthy, i think i could still manage. (",)