i should keep track of myself more often. Nowadays, i just whacked something without taking a step back to consider or ponder first before taking action. That could be impulsive decision which may cause great impact everyone including myself. Either i could not be bothered or i have reached a stage that i just need to voice out my thoughts even though it may cause major destruction to my career.

Nevertheless, i still think that i should just hold back a little so that i could see the big picture more clearly before jumping into the water. Like that, i will get drown faster which may not be that bad. Crazy right. i am definitely having signs of burn outs. i desperately need my break from work... one more month to go for that break.

must control... yes yes,,, will try to control......