Sometimes it's just all about mindset. i found myself out of the blue in terms of work attitude. I am back to my normal self taking things easily and found my passion back. Surprise !!!!

Maybe all the crying and releasing of stress helped. It has been a long while since i released my emotions completely. There is no particular reason why i could do that the other night. But i was just trying to force myself to release the built up emotional stress in me over the past few months. i was either too worn out or too busy to have some time to deal with my emotional changes. In the past that what i always do whenever i met with some unhappiness or unjustified events. This helped me to move on and not to look back at the damage done in the past. Ever since i am in ct and roster, i dun have ample time to deal with the part of my life.

Guess what happen on thursday had helped to trigger the process. Perhaps i have to thank you for that. i shall look upon that as my challenge and opportunities to perfect my skills. If i dun learn it now, i will not have another chance to force myself to learn more rather than depend on others. Time to utilize my brain more often and think of ways to get good scans with difficult patients.

Listening to X Japan helped too. It has been months since i listen to their music. For a period of time, it was too depressing to listen to their music especially "Tears". Damn emotional. Every time i played this song, the tap will just automatically turned on , then that's it. Cried like nobody business. Hee hee .. can try ,,, good form of music therapy. =)

After that, i choose to play Lee hom's last concert cd. That brighten me up coz i loved his live performance, the music arrangement and all just makes him special. His concert is not like just singing his songs just like his albums were produced. There are always surprises with the music rearrangement.

Yes my music therapy worked just fine for me. Now i am back ..... no more the whinning me and always complaint about this and that. That is absolutely not me !!!!!